"I want Mason to come home."
He said this as his little face melted into tears. Talk about breaking my heart. I told him we had to go to Target but after that it would be time to go get Mason. He replied,
"I want to go get Mason from his school and then go to Target. I heared the ding dong at his school."
Obviously, he was talking about the bell that rings when the school day is over. Bless his little heart. I've never heard him talk about missing his brother.
They often get frustrated with each other after Mason comes home from school and wants to "take over" Max's set-up train set or other toys, but the past two days since Mason had early dismissal at noon, they literally played together the entire two afternoons and I can't remember breaking up any conflicts. They were laughing, creating new games, playing old ones, making big messes and just enjoying being together. It was so much fun to see.
31 days flies by pretty quickly. In case you forgot, I joined another blogger's challenge to write for 31 days in the month of October on any topic, and I chose "31 Days of Letting Love Win". I feel like this month I've learned a lot. I've learned to find love in places I didn't expect it. I've learned that love is hard, and it takes work. I've learned that sometimes love sounds more like a whisper than a trumpet, and that to hear it you have to sometimes sit still and stop trying so hard.
To me, letting love win is about listening more to the positive words we say in our heads, and disagreeing with the negative ones. It's about choosing to think less about protecting myself and more about opening up to someone else. It's about making the right choices, the ones that make me feel good about myself, even if no one else understands why. I don't always make the right decisions, and I certainly won't ever be perfect, but I do feel like I've been changed this month, that I've torn down some of those protective layers, those brick walls, and the real me is more exposed. I feel more vulnerable, and more in touch with my heart, with making choices that are better for myself and my family and less worried about pleasing everyone else.
Thank you for joining me on this journey. I still have a long way to go, to get healthy from childhood wounds, and learn to be a better parent, wife, daughter, friend, and sister. But I'm on my way, and I'm 31 days closer to the person I was made to be.
Any thoughts for November? Seems like I need a new challenge. We'll see!
Have a great night!
