Friday, March 25, 2011

Photos As Promised

 My "home" for the weekend, "Helene's Room"

 My Bathroom

Don't want to miss your favorite show while you take a hot bath?  No problem!


All you ever needed to know about raising farm animals. 

These are actual records of daily work completed on the farm.  As you can see, this page is from 1933. 

One of many self-portraits. 

Oh look, I'm on the bed. 

And now I'm casually sitting against this wall.

 Awkward?!   

My first morning's breakfast.  It was INCREDIBLE!  The homemade cider topped it off. 

I'm very good at using the timer on the camera at this point.  It's just hard to run back to the chair and act like I've been quietly sitting there the whole time. 

Heading out after breakfast to go see the lake. This was the view from my room.



Serene.  Quiet.  Perfect. 

Not another awkward self-portrait!

The very steep stairs heading down to the lake. 

I made it. Totally worth it.

Untouched snow.

I was fascinated by these crevasses. I couldn't tell where the water ended and the land began.


My soon-to-be companion.

It's okay.  I'm pretty sure this wasn't meant for me.

Back up the stairs.


View from the top.

Time for some serious snowshoeing.

Really, again?

Making my path where no one had gone before.  Or, at least since the last snowfall.



I love how brilliant this red was in contrast to everything else.

A funny peeling tree.

Wow, you're a natural.  You look so at-ease on those snow shoes.

Some of the cool farm machines.

All done.

My sweet little buddy.  Followed me around the whole morning and waited outside my door when I'd go inside.  I'm not usually a dog person, but she got to me.

I love red barns.

Some of the silos for storing grain.

We get it.  You like to take pictures of yourself.

Cozy feet.  Thanks Nae.

Sunday morning breakfast was equally AMAZING! 

The last self-portrait.  Showing off my timer-skills one last time.

An old butter churner was just one of their original antiques.

Exploring Sheboygan, this was a resort I came across on the lakeshore.



The only time I didn't take a picture of myself. As you can see, I decided to get my haircut.

A new "do" for a renewed me!

A trip and personal journey I will never forget.

Friday, March 18, 2011

Choosing My Moment

I started my goal for March a little early. The last weekend of February, I did something almost unheard-of, at least for a mom with two small children. Friday afternoon, I dropped the kids off with Miss Shelley while Mike was finishing up work, and I drove up to a little Bed and Breakfast in Wisconsin on the edge of Lake Michigan called the Lake Orchard Farm Bed and Breakfast. That is where this month's goal and eventual journey began.

I had been feeling a lot of turmoil inside of me, for various personal reasons and I knew that getting some alone time to sort through my feelings, enjoy some quiet time, and reconnect with God was something I really needed to do. I needed more than just an evening sitting in Starbucks, or a walk around the block. I needed to be really alone. For a whole weekend. This idea was perfect.

The Bed and Breakfast is located on a farm in a building that used to be the summer kitchen many years ago. It has since been converted into a beautiful building with four suites and two beautiful common areas filled with pictures and antiques showing the history of the farm. Each morning I ate breakfast by myself at an old oak farm table while I talked to the 5th generation farmer's wife who told me stories of the old days. Having spent many of my best summer memories as a child at my Great Uncle's farm, I felt right at home.  After breakfast, I headed down to the lake and sat in silence, listening to the wind, the water, and the thoughts I needed to straighten out. I almost got lost at one point when I went snowshoeing in the farm's wooded acreage. I followed the trails, but still got completely turned around. I didn't care, though. There was no one waiting for lunch or needing a nap. I could take as long as I wanted.

Over the course of the weekend, I took many hot baths in my personal whirlpool tub, during which I talked with God, cried with God, and listened to Him.  The joke to myself was that anytime I was ready for another "therapy session" all I had to do was fill up the tub and before I knew it the tears would be flowing.  Sometimes you just need to let it out.  As a mom, you don't take time for yourself. You forget how important it is to take care of your needs and that if you don't, you might not have the strength and energy to be the kind of mom, wife and person you want to be.

One of the things I learned, is that I need to work on finding balance.  I tend to be an "all or nothing" kind of person.  I usually put all of my energy in to something and the rest of the world is invisible to me, or I don't try at all.  This is a challenge when I want to work on my relationship with God and grow closer to Him, but keep getting distracted and finding other things to put "all" my energy into.

I went into the weekend thinking what I needed most was quiet time alone, but what I learned was that what I actually needed most was quiet time alone - with God.  And I need it on a regular basis, not just for one relaxing weekend, but I need Him all the time, to get through life without getting overwhelmed and overspent.

This month, my goal has been to keep finding these "moments" with God.  I've found them out on walks with my kids, laying in bed looking out my window, and sitting in the backyard.  It's actually much easier than I thought, I just have to choose to make it happen. During the day, we spend more time outside exploring than we do walking around the mall (helps that the weather is nicer now).  I've taken the boys to some new parks and several forest preserves. I feel more peaceful, the boys love running around outside rather than being stuck in a stroller or scolded for wandering away, and we all feel more connected to each other. I feel a peace that I haven't felt in a long time.

For the rest of this month, I'm going to keep choosing to have these moments, and to give myself more opportunities to experience them.  I can feel the changes and I want to keep them coming.

Tuesday, March 08, 2011

March-in' on.

We're a week in to March already, and I'm so glad. I think everyone I've talked to is more than ready for warmer days. We're finally having high temps in the 30's now - and it's about time! My yellow lily plant - the plant that was split and transplanted from the garden I had growing up in Washington, then to Denver, and now to Illinois (of course always leaving a piece behind) is already starting to come up!  We're ready for you, Spring!

My "Vegan Experience" for February was a huge education for me. I'm usually good at starting things with fierce motivation and it's always the finishing part that's hard for me. However, this time I stuck with it. Let me say, before I go on, that anything I share below is not meant to be judgemental or critical to anyone's personal eating preferences. My goal is to share my personal insights through my experience of going vegan, and my intent is not to offend anyone, but to share candidly with you.

I was having fun trying my little "experiment" until after about 2 1/2 weeks. It was then that I was very close to throwing in the towel, and making myself the biggest grilled-cheese sandwich I could ever imagine. I was definitely cranky for a week, missing my dairy products after the newness wore off. I pushed through it though, and am happy to say that I'm so glad I did. I had some great advice and insight from several vegan friends of mine.

One of my friends, Kristin, is vegan (or more appropriately, she is actually "cruelty-free") primarily for the abuse animals undergo so that we can eat food or use other products derived from them. She is an expert on all things vegan including the best places to eat, the best tasting imitation products, and also the processes animals go through to produce the products we use. It's pretty horrible to think about what they go through, and I'll admit that I hadn't thought seriously about that issue before. One thing I learned from her that especially impacted me was that even as a vegetarian, I can contribute to animal cruelty. For instance, cows are subjected to forced lactation, and eventually slaughtered after their milk production days are over. Another idea to consider, is whether it is actually natural for a human to drink milk from a cow anyway?  It's probably easier for me than for some to think of it as being unnatural since I don't drink milk anyway, but I may be the only one who feels that way in my family since I have several family members who LOVE milk (and for the record: they are totally entitled to love it!). For me, as a scrambled egg-lover, it was hard for me to hear that chickens beaks are cut off and baby boy chicks are literally thrown into the trash can since they produce no profitable product. Overall, I certainly have a lot to consider when it comes to consuming food from animals who endured pain and suffering to give it to me in the first place. There very well may be some exceptions to the treatment of animals in these situations, but I would expect that would be a rare exception.  To sum it up, I appreciate this thought from Kristin: "I just can't fathom forcing any person or animal to give me ANYTHING when I can live very happily and healthily without it."

Two of my other vegan friends, Becki and Kelsey, adopted the vegan-way primarily for health reasons (as I understand it from my conversations with them). A great benefit of a plant-based diet is that you don't have the fats and cholesterol issues to worry about.  You will almost always consume less calories which is also a benefit especially with the challenges of obesity we currently have in our culture.  You do have to take more care to think about what you're eating to make sure you have a balanced diet, but as long as you plan it right, you can get all your necessary vitamins and nutrients from plants.

Eating vegan is not necessarily the easiest way to eat - at least for me. I tend to have that common American problem of wanting things to be easy and fast and it can be hard finding good vegan options, especially if you eat out often. We eat at home much more than we used to, but I have been happy with Taco Bell's "Fresco" menu items on more than one occasion. Something else I learned was that it's not only dairy that a true vegan won't eat, but also gelatin (ingredients made from hooves) and honey. Just like a vegetarian, there are different types of vegans. Some choose to omit gelatin and honey, while others don't.

Overall, I have loved being vegan, and I decided to continue past February because I'm feeling so good. That's right, I'm still going! My body feels great, I am more "regular", and I've lost a few pounds! I still have plenty of energy and have found that I am eating less naturally. I don't crave food like I did before and I find I eat with more intention, to fuel my body, rather than to eat for pleasure or indulge in something tasty. I don't think there's necessarily something wrong with eating something just to enjoy it, but for me, I was bordering on an addiction to cheese and that wasn't healthy.

I would definitely recommend to anyone to try it out, but also to do it for at least a month so your body and mind really has time to adjust. You have nothing to lose, but you might lose cholesterol and a few pounds!

Thanks for reading.  I really learned a lot this month!

Later, I'll catch you up on my March goal!